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It’s a large world and it’s small. Are we ever sure of what we’re doing? When do you finally know that everything is right? Old men say to be patient. Some people tell you to get it all done as quickly as possible so that you can be secure. Some people tell you that the pleasure is in the journey and the discovery. I ride the bus and see the people around me. They’re from Europe, from Africa, from India, from all over Asia, from America, from the ghetto and some from nice homes. How many of them know what they’re doing? How many of them are content? How many are ambitious? Being unsure and desperate makes you do things you wouldn’t ordinarily do.

Yesterday, I paid some random person $40 to take my resume up to his company’s Human Resources department (security wouldn’t let me in the building so I stopped one of the office workers when he went outside). That was ballsy for me. I’m not usually that kind of adventurous. Yesterday, I walked over 10 miles in a tie and dress shoes to 8 different offices to drop off my resume. My feet hurt last night. Yesterday, I sat in an office for over 45 minutes waiting to speak with a manager who said for me to wait 1 or 2 minutes. I got sleepy. I live in a place I wouldn’t ordinarily choose to. I don’t walk around too much after it gets dark.

When do you become sure that what you’re doing will pay off? When do you know that it will work out, just like you tell everyone else that it will. When do you start believing what you tell all those people who ask if you’re doing ok? Sometimes, you know it’ll be all ok. Sometimes, you don’t.

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